Shawny's Space

有时候。。

2011-05-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

有时候。。

难免会想起你。。。

亲爱的。。你还好吗？

...We were always just that close

2011-04-07T21:50:00.001+08:00

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
...We were always just that close
Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

It's never easy!

2011-01-28T11:17:00.003+08:00

it's never easy...

i'm still not over it..

..n i'm still holding on...

i know i shouldn't but i just can't help myself..

i'm so stupid for still doing all these!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2010-12-30T23:23:00.001+08:00

... to be continued..

愁人节

2010-12-26T03:49:00.000+08:00

Merry No More Christmas..

2010-12-26T02:54:00.003+08:00

Merry X'mas!!!
A festival with love...
A festival of celebration...
A festival I love the most...

..but I don't feel anything in this lovely day..
I'm afraid of the idea of the loneliness after celebration, 狂欢后的寂寞..
it's just sucks!

Imagine u have to drive back alone after the celebration?
Where is the person that will hold your hand when driving?
Where is the person that will ask for a kiss whn you get into the car?
Where is the person that seated whn you turn your head to your left?

A day I love the most but I did not spend a single time with the person I wish to spend with..

Merry Merry Christmas.. :)

Song that stucked in my mind.. Perhaps.. it is in my mind?

2010-12-17T19:27:00.001+08:00

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I've been in love with you

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

Policeman says son you can't stay here
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl, oh whoa
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet
Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street

So I'm not moving
('Cause if one day you wake up, find that you're missing me)
I'm not moving
(And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be)
I'm not moving
(Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet)
I'm not moving
(Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

2010-12-17T19:15:00.002+08:00

all alone in an empty office during friday nite!

^ ^

如飞蛾之赴火，岂焚身之可吝

2010-12-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

2010-12-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

I'm not broke, I'm just a broken hearted man...

I've learned a lesson

2010-11-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

Human are selfish and cruel!

Time to be like a 'normal' human...

I won't be giving out sooo much anymore..

and yet.. this is what I got.. ignorance and avoidance...

I hate this! seriously!

I wanna be selfish!

I'm one of them..

and I hope I'll be worse then them!!

'Delete' Button

2010-11-21T20:00:00.003+08:00

I have a habit..

A habit of keeping messages that certain people sent to me...

When it reaches an end... it will be same goes to the messages as well...

And..

... I'm deleting all the messages you sent today! :)
*i should have done this earlier ago.. but i don't want to.. when i don't feel anything from u.. nothing at all! i know i should move on... good bye*

It's always hard for me to make this move...

2010-11-21T19:53:00.000+08:00

21st Nov 2010

I've brought my mom out for breakfast.. :)

放下

2010-11-17T15:02:00.000+08:00

放下，

也是一种选择。

现在的我，须然孤单，

但很平静。。。

一部分

2010-11-16T18:32:00.002+08:00

曾经，
我以为我们可以一起走到这里。

现在，
却渐渐忘了你的样子；
也记不起来你的声音。

你在做什么？

在对谁笑？

已经不重要了！

是不是每个离开你的人，
都会留下他的一部分给你？

Hold on

2010-11-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

Hold on,

Hold on to yourself,

This is gonna hurt like hell...

寂寞寂寞不好

2010-11-03T03:19:00.000+08:00

很喜欢这首歌的歌词。
感触很深。可是我没能像它那样坚强。

像在悬崖边抓着一只手
我不忍心把你一起拉着掉下，可是却怎么都放不了手
并不是怕身下的深渊，只是真的舍不得放开
放了就没了。。一切一切都不再是我的。

也许我会崩溃得无法再见你

只是。。拉着拉着，看到彼此越渐狼狈，我知道放开的日子迟早要来。
我有心理准备，可是还是很怕很怕。

我寂寞寂寞，怎么还不好？

十一月

2010-11-01T11:10:00.000+08:00

新的开始!!!

2010-10-31T22:22:00.003+08:00

我以为我放下了

但, 我发现我还是想念着你

原来,放下,很难...

結束

2010-10-30T21:38:00.001+08:00

沒有誰可以挽救垂死的愛情,

我們終於只剩下哀傷的決定,

我不相信,現在看過去

會沉重的讓我沉溺, 會不堪的讓你逃離,

沒有誰可以破壞虛弱的幸福,

只有我們才知道愛情剩下什麼面目,

置身事外求一個恢復,

我可以等漫漫的苦而不是誰趁虛而入,

我願意結束......

今夜就要把你釋放... 把你遺忘

2010-10-30T20:45:00.000+08:00

空港

作詞：武雄作曲：周恆毅

話已經講完愛已風乾
心不再搖晃夢早已存檔
誰在寂寞的空港催促著離去的航班
只能這樣

刪去你的影像就沒有遺憾
這次我很堅強不再有幻想
你的夢不夠寬敞裝不下我的淚兩行
今夜我就要離航

點亮月光走進沒有愛情的空港
忘掉感傷忘掉所有替你圓的謊
不必偽裝天塌下來就讓別人去扛
沒有你那又怎樣

你真的不必再勉強
我不會再有期望
今夜就要把你釋放

乘著月光航向沒有夢想的空港
面對憂傷面對明天我會更勇敢
不怕風霜告訴自己就在這裡鬆綁
沒有你就是這樣

剪斷月光停在沒有回憶的空港
獨自療傷抱著自己好好哭一場
不再迷惘不再對你存有任何遐想
沒有你不會怎樣

就把你遺忘把你遺忘

2010-10-25T17:41:00.001+08:00

PRAYING HARD FOR HER!!!

My worry

2010-10-25T17:19:00.005+08:00

11.14am
i received a call from aunt saying that my mom had a fall..
she's in pain whenever she breathe..

im so worried bout her..
i took EL and rushed back..
i need to be home taking care of dad so that she can go for check up in hospital..

sis had already got home whn i stepped ma feet to my house..
after she packed, sis sent her to hospital..
i managed to catch a word with her before she went to hospital..
but i can tell that she's so in pain n worry..

after x-ray, the surgeon told that 2 of her rib bones cracked..
one of the cracked bone is slightly out of place, and it might puke her lung..
she needs to admit to hospital for another round of x-ray to make sure everything ok..
yet, she's so worried that i might not able to handle my father who had stroke for 4 years.

i told ma sis to tell her that i'll be ok..
she needs rest..

she fell at 10something, but she dare not to call us..
worrying that we will be all busy at work!
this is her! always worry bout us rather then herself!
until ma aunt reached ma house n saw her in pain..
n that time, aunt called me..
she'd been suffering for more den an hr alone!!!

My mom is tough! tougher den anyone else!
she's the one willing to do anything for us without complaining at all..
despite that, she'd been taking care of my dad for over 4 yrs!!!
4 yrs taking care of him is certainly not an easy job! perhaps, it is the toughest job i can say..
i noe that she's tired.. i noe tat she's worried.. she jus take tis everything by her own..
she haven been having a proper slp taking care of that crumpy old man day and night..

My birthday wish for this yr is so simple...
i wish i can bring her out on the weekend.. bringing her for lunch or dinner..
bringing her to the place i always hang out.. buying her stuff that she likes...

it's that easy :)

Mom.. get well soon! I love u!! I really do!!

突然...

2010-10-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

十二点就到了!
突然间想关掉手机,关掉电脑..
玩失踪...

笨蛋!生日快乐!

。。又一天

2010-10-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

独自的。。
一个人。。
静静的。。
在office。。
赶着工。。
肚子饿。。
听着歌。。
累累的。。
就这样。。

。。又一天

机器人

2010-10-20T20:25:00.004+08:00

我开始习惯单身。。。
过着机器人的生活。。
起床，工作，睡觉。。然后又重复，又重复。。
一个人。。重复，又重复。。
重复了，又再重复。。
不断地重复。。

。。。。。。。

直到齿轮停止运作。。

天秤座

2010-10-18T00:14:00.002+08:00

优雅的天秤在灯红酒绿中微笑转身，顾盼神采，洒脱如同水中的鱼。他们与红酒，水晶杯，晚礼服，钢琴曲是那么的相得益彰，漫不经意的吸引着公众的眼光……

几乎所有人都有这样一种印象：

天秤座的人善意、可亲，爱交朋友。于是大家也由此认为天秤是群居生物，必然是害怕独处，喜欢热闹的。

但，事实并不是表面看来那样简单。

的确，天秤是个和平使者。在公众场合可以很好地调节气氛使之均衡。气氛热烈时，他们会沉静的压住阵脚；气氛冷凝时，他们会运用不着痕迹的轻松幽默化解坚冰。总之他们不会随波逐流去助长气氛的冷热，而是像用天秤称量物品一样，加减砝码，使之维持水平状态。

而他们在做这种加减的时候，动作是优雅的，态度是和悦的，看起来漫不经心不动声色。实际上，他们是很有心计的人，尽管众口难调，也可以找到一种万全的方式来使全局和谐起来。

但是这并不是说他们喜欢主宰，只是因为他们看不得失衡，那会使他们如坐针毡。

因此，尽管慵懒的天秤座讨厌麻烦，讨厌得要命，他们还是会不由自主地担负起调节的责任。也许正因如此，使得天秤在公众场合从未放松过自己。性格使他们承担了不必要的责任，无可推卸。

他们不吝惜金钱，却吝惜自由的时间和安静的休闲时光。像所有风向星座一样，他们喜欢自由，喜欢像风一样谁也捉不住他。

他们喜欢自在独立的空间。就算你是他最好的朋友，也不要老和他粘在一起，你要知道他并不喜欢如此，尽管他不会直接说出来。你也得相信，你的天秤座朋友也许半年也没有音信，但是只要一见面，你还是他最好的朋友。因为他就是这种交友方式，你拿他怎么办？

“我懒得……”

这是天秤座的口头语。他们懒得出门，懒得聚会，懒得应酬……所以他们并不是很喜欢参加party。倒是宁愿呆在家里上网，看书，画画。他们自身是均衡的，一个人的均衡总比一群人的均衡来的容易。所以他们喜欢独处。

通常，天秤座的人会给人一见如故的感觉，因为他们有着温婉的微笑和优雅的举止。对初次见面的人，天秤座往往表现出自己最讨人喜欢的一面：善解人意，大方，诚恳，健谈。但是这种热情劲儿不会长久。冷漠何时到来取决于你与他交往的频率。你越是粘得紧，他就冷得越快。因为他们喜欢“君子之交清淡如水”。不是他们不喜欢同伴，而是他们和人交往更多地关注了对方的情绪，总想着照顾对方心情，不要发生冲突，所以感觉像是在工作一样，无法真正的放松。

较之对宫白羊座，天秤是另一种独立的个体。白羊是一种外在的独立，内心是热的；天秤则是表面看似亲和力很强，内心却是任谁也无法融入的。天秤的冷静，连他们自己也觉得惊讶。“我居然如此冷漠！太不可思议了……”他们审视自己的时候，感觉有点陌生。那是因为他们把内心世界掩饰得连自己都骗过了。

他们控制情绪的能力太强了。最亲近的人会感觉到，天秤给人不露声色的隔离感，有时会被埋怨“太冷静了，我都不知道你在想什么！”

可是他们不是故意要隐瞒什么，只是出于本能。一个连自己都骗过了的人，你还能要求他对你坦白什么？

他们不喜欢歇斯底里，不喜欢痛哭失声，不喜欢安慰别人也不怎么喜欢被安慰。因为他们懂得，谁也无法真正理解另一个人。

天秤，其实是很独立的一个星座。他们在霓虹灯影里微笑，在灯火阑珊处寂寞。他们叫你懂得：孤独的最高境界是繁华。

处女座

2010-10-18T00:12:00.001+08:00

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为“状态”。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症) 因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的"处女座的人最喜欢若即若离"。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于“洁癖”——并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的“完美”格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于“花心”——一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于“聪明”——不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于“单纯”——处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于“幽默”——都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于“迟钝”——别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于“自私”——处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关于“逃避”——由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于“内涵”——处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

15th October 2010

2010-10-15T21:14:00.004+08:00

Date : 15th October 2010
Day : Friday
Time : 9.15pm
Venue : Office
Status : Alone with my hungry tummy
Background music : S' Wonderful - Joao Gilberto

It's Friday night!
And yea.. I'm all alone in office.
It's been so long I never spend my Friday night alone.
Been busy the whole day and I've just finished all my work in hand at this time.
If I'm still the same old me, perhaps, I'll still go out with frens even it's 11pm after work!
But I choose to stay in office alone tonight.
I don't feel like meeting anyone.
Don't feel like putting a smile again,
throwing jokes and making fool of myself to make people laugh.
I need a 'me' time in this quiet environment.
I need to deal with loneliness somehow.
Or will it be the new me?

My colleagues all was complaining that I'm too lame and too noisy.(they are perfectly fine with it but just to tease me la)
But i started to wonder 'is that the real me'?
I started to feel lost.
Which is the real me?
What I want in my life?
What I really am?
And what I really want?
I dunno!
Life, Work, Money, Love, Family, Relationship!
I failed to be a son, I failed to be a bf, I failed to be a date, I failed to be myself!
I'm all screwed up!
I need time for my own again to pick up from pieces.

24 years of life passed.
It's my birthday again in 7 days time.
I don't feel excited at all for this birthday.
I always wish to celebrate my birthday with someone special.
But this birthday I dunno who to be with.
So, no leave on this 22nd! WORK! WORK! and WORK!!
I need things to destract myself la. :)
Earn more money yo!

Birthday is just a normal day thou!
Why would I having any expectation on this day.
Perhaps, I'm a person who have too much expectations in life.
But, I started to absorb the theory of 'When there's no expectation, there will not be any disappointment'.

It's proven in everything tat happened in my life.
I realised it! But I'll just let this to be happened over and over again.

Shawn! Wake up!

10 days to go

2010-10-13T07:54:00.001+08:00

10 days to go???

hmmm..
wat a word!!!

To me...

2010-10-12T00:54:00.002+08:00

Often...

you will ask yourself.. is it worth it?

if people had already gave up in u,

why are you still here?

好吗?

2010-10-11T00:45:00.002+08:00

我又再从读你的旧POST...

你还好吗？

你真的还好吗？

Love

2010-10-11T00:26:00.001+08:00

Love,

Make people do funny things.

Everyone gets like this,

at the beginning of love.

Wanting too much happiness. too much pleasure,

until you make yourself sick.

It always happens at the beginning of love story.

Lose balance.

Please don't! Don't give up on love!

To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.

2010-10-09T09:03:00.002+08:00

after the all the said and done

... perhaps

it's time for me to go

Secondary

2010-10-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

就像是故事里的情节,
除了男女主角,总会有个配角.
这也发生在我的现实生活里,
我永远都不会是人家生命中的主角.

SECONDARY,
我往往是人家的SECONDARY,
就不知道为什么,
可能这就是我的命运吧!
任命啦!!!

笨!!

Eat . Pray . Love

2010-10-04T00:54:00.005+08:00

This movie inspired me a lot..
Especially for my situation now..
It does teach me a lot of things...
In point of view on life, love, etc...

*I'll grab this book from bookstore nearby soon*

十月

2010-10-01T19:31:00.002+08:00

十月了，
又到了十月！

九月以前的回忆。。。
我怕我放不下。。

太多。。太多。。。

你，你，还有你。。。

在我生命中的你，还好吗？

我在想念你。。。

笨!

2010-10-01T11:20:00.000+08:00

我是真的笨!!

希望

2010-09-29T19:14:00.002+08:00

我还是带着希望。。。

希望一切会改变！

望着，望着，原来只是我的一只手在打着拍子。。

没有，没有响过。。。

遗憾

2010-09-19T02:05:00.004+08:00

失去了，
离开了，
才感到遗憾。

做错了，
错过了，
才感到后悔。

但，太迟了。

人总是犯贱的！
一直犯着同样的错！

感触

2010-09-17T19:03:00.001+08:00

你离开的第二天，
我独自一个人开车通往飞机场的路上，
听着你send给我的歌，
同样的路上，
同样的音律，
同样的车子，
同样的飞机，
同样的机场，
唯一不一样的是你已经离开了。

突然的，酸酸的感觉涌了上我的鼻头。
想起了很多东西，
原来这种感觉叫做感触！

你，真的离开了。。。

习惯与依赖

2010-01-05T22:59:00.002+08:00

习惯与依赖这两样东西是长久累积下来才会形成的

习惯是很可怕的东西, 好的习惯固然是好

一旦你染上坏习惯, 那就会变得很可怕

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两个人在一起, 很多事情都会变成一种习惯或依赖

习惯一起吃饭, 习惯一起看电视节目, 习惯一起逛街,

习惯分享心事或烦恼

两个人也会互相依赖

男的可能会依赖女的帮他洗衣服, 女的可能会依赖男的帮她张罗三餐

很多很多的习惯和依赖就在无形中形成

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但是, 两个人如果一旦分开

所有的习惯和依赖就必须戒掉

各自过各自的生活

一个人吃饭, 一个人看电视节目, 一个人逛街

没有所谓的习惯, 没有所谓的依赖

一切的一切都要回到当初一个人的时候

不管你有多么的不习惯, 那就是事实

不管你有多辛苦, 那还是事实

------------------------------------------------

Things in ma mind..

2009-11-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

Please make me feel important!!!
I'm you bf!! i'm not a stranger to you!!!
Please at least show your appreciation of having me but not just having me for the sake of getting a so called 'bf'
Please be ready if you into a relationship!
and be serious! I'm not an ordinary person to u!!
At least make me feel that you are proud to have me!!

Cambodiana once again...

2009-09-05T11:11:00.003+08:00

Once again.. I'll be leaving to Cambodia for 2 weeks...
FYI, i'm gonna work but not for holiday...
again.. im afraid tat i might need to extend to an unknown period of stayin there..

2009-08-29T08:22:00.000+08:00

想爱...想爱...

Counting down...

2009-08-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

4 MORE DAYS!!!!

Ma dearest bao bei ne gonna come bck in 4 days time...
after a year of waiting..
we are all getting mature..
n v had been through a lot within tis year..
im glad that that i have ne throughout the whole year...
for wat we'd been through... would certainly bring up the level of appreciation on each other..
thx... n im lookin forward to c u!! :)

10月22日

2009-07-21T10:49:00.000+08:00

10月22日﹝天王星‧愚者﹞
代表人物：凱薩琳丹妮芙
好奇心重，喜歡不斷創新；
具有獨特的魅力，能吸引別人注意；
禁不住誘惑，喜歡冒險和尋求刺激。
優點是果敢，勇往直前，企圖心強，充滿靈感和創意。
缺點是容易衝動，不按牌理出牌，容易被欺騙。

saw this in ma fren's post...
but it was a good 1.. :(
愚者!!! T___T
容易被欺騙!!! T___T

passion vs current job

2009-06-30T23:15:00.003+08:00

me : i hate ma days now as i cant do things that i like..
fren : you will eventually get used to it.. sooner o later.. u wont have energy to do it anymore..
me : never.. i'll nv lose passion in wat i like.. perhaps.. it gonna make me even hate ma job now..

今天的教育展

2009-06-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

今天到了我家附近的一所学校的教育展。。
那边的学生真的太可爱了！！！
分享两折我今天听见的对白。。。

男同学：“你唔系要读空姐既咩？”
女同学很认真甘回答说：“我都乜胸！！！” （广东话）

当我正准备回公司时，一个读中四的男学生过来帮我抬箱子上我车。
一路上，我关心的问道：“还好吗？？会重吗？？要不要帮忙？？”
他说：“不用啦！我是scout，我是有练过的！”
我无言。但我同事笑反的说那男同学太可爱了！！！

读书的日子，好令人怀念。。。
好想念以前的日子。。 :(

母亲节

2009-05-08T20:30:00.002+08:00

“还不睡啊？夜睡对身体不好啊！”
“厨房褒了些补的，去喝！”
“昨晚又熬夜啦？今天会有精神做工吗？”
妈妈嘴里听起来唠唠叨叨的话；孩子听了,其实心里是蛮爽的，
因为他们都知道妈妈是爱他们才会唠唠叨叨呢！

妈妈，在五个子女的心目中是永远的第一！
他们都知道没有人会比他们的妈妈还要爱他们，还要关心他们，
他们心里都认为妈妈是世上最美，最好，最伟大的！

近年来，家里发生了不少的事，
妈妈担心了，妈妈哭了，妈妈也瘦了
孩子们的心也痛了，他们是传统的东方人，
永远不会把爱挂在嘴边，
可是，他们要让妈妈知道，
无论如何，妈妈的地位是永远不会被动摇的！

妈妈，我们爱你，您辛苦了。

下辈子我们还要做您的孩子，
因为您是我妈妈，我们永远的骄傲。

母亲节快乐。。。

毕业

2009-05-08T19:48:00.004+08:00

2008年12月14日，我毕业了!
人家说毕业是人生其中一个重要的时间，
而我最想跟我一起分享这份喜悦的人―――她没来。
不是她不爱我，
而是她需要照顾家里病倒的爸爸。

我知道她很想看到我站在台上的样子，
但，她看不到。
4年了，我读了这行4年了。
她从最初的反对变成接收。
一路走来，就算是反对，她也默默地为我加油。
常常担心我夜睡啦，身体熬坏啦，生病啦，这个那个。
而我确常常顶撞她，感觉自己真的很不肖！

在我毕业典礼正式开始之前，我崩溃了。
我在车里哭的泣不可声，做我旁边的SKY吓着了。
也谢谢他的安慰，我才能平静下来。
那时我才发现我原来是那么爱我妈妈，那么在在乎着她！

妈妈没看到我毕业，我感到很遗憾。
但我知道，我毕业，你会为我感到无限的光荣！感到骄傲！

... stucked

2009-02-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

i feel lik writing how i feel in this 2 months...

.... but im stucked...

The Wrong Path

2009-01-30T19:51:00.002+08:00

of all the plans that u'd planned...
u thought that u'd made the right choice of life...

..but now...

things changed...

and u noe that u made the wrong decision...

2009-01-18T15:55:00.002+08:00

when everything messed up in your life....

.....that's the time u got nothing left...

................but yourself...

lifeless life continued...

2008-12-03T01:10:00.003+08:00

im officially graduated 2 weeks ago...
n im still bz doin ma freelance work...
it gonna end by xmas.. (hopefully)
so that i got a week to rest or goin for haliday b4 i start ma permanent work on 2nd of jan...
it's really tired workin str8 after u grad...
for ma case... i was doin it like few weeks b4 i finish ma assgn...
n now at tis point... i really tired...
i did it for money but im not a robot... im really tired...
having problems on transportation/ accommodation/ tis n that...
actually i kinda regret for workin non stop now...
ppl saying tat im a workaholic... but if onli i have de money... i don hav to work lik a mad dog lik wat im doin now... rushing tis n tat... involved in office politic although im jus a freelancer...
n family jus dunno how hard im now...
im those who will not tell ma problems out....
in their point of view.. im still a manja, spoiled kid of the family...
but watever.. no point i wanna defent maself back bcz i noe wat im doin...
watever i do... i hav a reason for maself... n tat's enuff for me...
i don k how ppl c me.. how dey look at me...
as long as i noe wat i am doing....

p/s : all i need is a holiday.... but i noe it's hard for me to have tat now... :)

antisocial...

2008-11-19T10:38:00.001+08:00

im getting more n more antisocial...

lifeless

2008-11-19T09:27:00.003+08:00

im a workin man now!!!
but i still have 2 more assignments before i finish up ma semester...

conclusion..
(workin+study) at da same time = lifeless...

graduates showcase

2008-11-10T08:54:00.002+08:00

yes!!! we made it!!!
ma class finally done v our graduates showcase...
i enjoyed the progression so much although there are lotsa gossips, arguments, streessss, bla bla bla going on.. but it's experience la!!! b positive...
n ya.. pic ll b up soon!!! stay tune..
2 more weeks to go!!! den i'll b officially free!!!
but.. i start workin today... cz i need money!!! lol...
hope tat i can allocate ma time well to finish up da assgn in hand n oso ma work!!!

good luck shawny!!!

"frighteningly lonely.."

2008-11-02T02:10:00.008+08:00

"frighteningly lonely.."

"it's like when we were younger,
we were so lonely because we didn't have alot friends..
and now that we grown up..
loneliness seems just so much worse.."

"so i have one question, if we can love someone so much,
how will we be able to handle it the day when we are separated?
and if being separated is a part of life..
and you know about separation well...
is it possible that, we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
at the same time..
i was wondering..
is it possible that, we live our entire life without loving someone at all??"

"that's my loneliness..
i've lived with it now for 5 years..
i know just how bad loneliness feels...
i fear it will continue to get worse..."

Ticket...

2008-10-29T23:24:00.002+08:00

เธอเคยได้ยินใช่ไหมว่าที่หนึ่งถ้าเราไปถึง จะมีทุกอย่าง
และเคยได้ยินใช่ไหมว่ามีรถไฟที่พาไปถึงปลา ยทาง
และคงได้ยินมาบ้างเรื่องตั๋วเดินทางไปสู่ค วามรัก
ที่มันอาจหาได้ไม่ยาก แต่มันลำบากเมื่อตอนเดินทาง
โย่ๆ เออ และนี่คือบทเพลงที่บรรเลงความหว้าเหว่ ก็คือ
This song a sing a song
อะหว้าเหว่ ดังๆ ใครต่อใครมาเจออะหว้าเหว่ มาฟัง
This song a sing a song อะหว้าเหว่ ฟ้างฟัง
นั่นคือเพลงๆนั้นที่เธอกับฉันเคยฟังด้วยกั น
บนทางที่ไปทะเลวันนั้น ฉันยังจำได้เหมือนในความฝัน
ที่บางคืนที่ฉันตื่นมานอนน้ำตา แค่ฝันร้าย
และคิดว่าเธอจะตื่นขึ้นมาได้เห็นได้ปลอบใจ แต่ไม่มีเลย
เธอจากฉันไป และนี่คือฝันร้ายที่ฉันยังคงติดตา
เหม่อมองดูทางรถไฟ ไม่มีใครไปแล้วกลับมา
คิดถึงใครที่ทิ้งไป แล้วไม่มีวันจะย้อนมา
หากฉันได้ไปกับรถไฟ ฉันคงจะไม่กลับมา
อยากไปกับรถไฟ แล้วคงไม่มีวันกลับมา
หา.. ใจคนเราไม่อาจลืมเลือนได้เช่นใด
แล้วก็ หัวใจคนไม่อยากเปลี่ยนแปลงไปเช่นนั้น
เรื่องที่ฉันตั้งใจจะลืมเธอไปสักคน เมื่อหลุดพ้น
ก็ทำใจลืมเธอได้ยาก ก็ไม่รู้ว่าเป็นเพราะอะไร
ใครบอกว่าทำใจมันต้องใช้เวลา เมื่อนานมาแล้วฉันรักเธอยังไง
แต่วันนี้เธอไปยังรักไม่มีสร่างซา ก็มันเป็นเพลงของใครไม่รู้
วันนี้ฉันเปิดดูไปเจอว่าแผ่นเสียง
ที่บอกว่าเป็นเพลงบนทางเดินเคียง
แต่วันนี้มีเพียง ฉันที่จำได้ ก็ไม่รู้ว่าจะลืมไปหรือยัง
ไม่รู้แม้กระทั่งเธอว่าไปอยู่ไหน
จะสบายดีหรือทุกข์ทนเจียนตาย
จะมีใครต่อใครปลอบใจหรือคอยยินดี
นี่คือความเสียใจที่ยังยืนยง
ในความลุ่มหลงที่ยังยืนนาน
เธอทำให้ฝันถึงวันเมื่อวาน
แล้วตื่นมา...ร้องไห้อยู่คนเดียว
นั่งมองดูทางรถไฟ ไม่มีใครไปแล้วกลับมา
คิดถึงใครที่ทิ้งไป แล้วไม่มีวันจะย้อนมา
(ไม่มีวันย้อนกลับมา)
หากฉันได้ไปกับรถไฟ ฉันคงจะไม่กลับมา
อยากไปกับรถไฟ แล้วคงไม่มีวันจะย้อนมา
ฉันนอนบนเตียงที่เธอเคยนอน และยังกอดหมอนที่เธอเคยหนุน
ฉันฝันว่ามันยังคงอบอุ่น ด้วยรักของเธอไม่มีเปลี่ยนไป
ฉันเคยพากเพียรเขียนซึ่งเพลงรัก ด้วยหวังว่าเธอจะมาสนใจ
แต่จนวันนี้ ณ เพลงรถไฟ
เธอไม่เคยจดจำ หรือเพราะว่ารักเธอ
ไปหรือเปล่า ฉันรักรักเธอเกินไปหรือเปล่า
หรือฉัน คิดถึง ไปหรือเปล่า
ฉันคิดคิดถึงเธอไปหรือเปล่า

Going Crazy...

2008-10-29T01:30:00.003+08:00

2 more weeks to our final exhibition...
it gonna b a last show for us in tis degree life...
i've been bz doin da catalog for da show...
changes after changes...
im going crazy!!!
36 pages of works... changed n changed again...
ok la.. i admit it's ma mistakes!!!
n it take lotsa time to correct it lo... sien!!!

n now...
i jus finished doin all da changes..
i hope tis ll b da last change!!!!
cz v got no time...
v need to print da catalog out asap... >__<

done v da catalog...
i still hav ma self-promo items n a portfolio book which im having 0% of ma progression on tat!!!
tat's ma major project of tis sem!!
there'll b onli 2 weeks left... wish me luck....

To all the Loves that bring us to Life...

2008-10-26T21:46:00.004+08:00

I can't b with you as your boyfriend..
But that doesn't mean that i don't love you...

Tongue Twister

2008-10-23T19:46:00.002+08:00

Here are some challenges for your tongue!!!
enjoy!!!!

Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers.
Did Peter Piper pick a peck of pickled peppers?
If Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers,
where’s the peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked?

A skunk sat on a stump and thunk the stump stunk,
but the stump thunk the skunk stunk.

She sells sea shells by the sea shore.
The shells she sells are surely seashells.
So if she sells shells on the seashore,
I’m sure she sells seashore shells.

A bitter biting bittern
Bit a better brother bittern,
And the bitter better bittern
Bit the bitter biter back.
And the bitter bittern, bitten,
By the better bitten bittern,
Said: "I’m a bitter biter bit, alack!"

How much wood would a woodchuck chuck
if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
He would chuck, he would, as much as he could,
and chuck as much wood as a woodchuck would
if a woodchuck could chuck wood.

Can you imagine an imaginary menagerie manager
imagining managing an imaginary menagerie?

I slit the sheet,
The sheet I slit
and on the slitted sheet I sit.

a year older...

2008-10-22T02:16:00.003+08:00

HapPy biRthdAy tO Me....

birthday month aint that happy for me...

2008-10-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

when ppl saying birthday month is da happiest month for the birthday boy/girl..
i'll strongly disagree v the statement...

as usual..
birthday month is da month tat i'll b fuckin broke among da 12 months in a year but tis yr..
ma financial situation even worse...
not onli me but ma family as well..
2 days ago... i lost ma Rm50 tat supposed to be the expenses for the week...
i was so unhappy v tat...
n im still having some money tat i need to spend.. exhibition, printing, material... bla bla bla..
i seriously dunno how im goin to survive now..

i jus got ma medical check up report today...
not so good bout it...
im now under medication again...

lappy still giving me problems....
n now even worse!!!
it happens when i need to rush for datelines...

dad still annoying me...
i cant concentrate on ma work when im at home!!!

im kinda helpless
all tis issues making feels lik having some1 in ma life...
ironically... i started to miss u again...
but u'll nv noe tat :p

it's ok...
i can go tru it all by maself!!!
im tough *i hope*

'happy' birthday to me in advanced...

LIBRA - The Harmonizer

2008-10-15T20:13:00.002+08:00

Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

happy birthday wayne...

2008-10-15T13:40:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE....

T___T

2008-10-15T07:04:00.005+08:00

status : freaking poor
problem : i lost ma onli RM50 for this week that i jus got it frm mom

when status n tis kinda problem combine...
it's almost the same feelin of having a tsunami strike on u!!!

n YES!!! im having tat....

money money... where ar u??? T________T

smooth e baby scrub...

2008-10-13T22:18:00.006+08:00

how can i forget bout tis ads i found randomly when i was youtube-ing??
was crazily obsessed v tis ads recently..
it is a must watch for ma day now!!! muahahhaa...
enjoy da ads la...

the recent me

2008-10-13T19:49:00.002+08:00

it's been a while again...
the blog was in hibernate mode for a while due to ma laziness...
la la la...
but at least im here again...
i jus came bck from pulau ketam...
took lotsa pics... but lazy to upload la... gonna upload it as soon as i done v ma assgn n da touch up of images...

ok... talk bout life...
im still single...
missing some1 once in a while ;p
bz v ma assgn (supposed to be..)
n ya..
having a freakin poor life...
frns always luff at me tat i don hav much cash in ma wallet... bcz i'll nv hav more den 1 RM50 note... pathetic life la....

oh ya...
im getting darker n darker...
went to zoo... den tanned in PD during raya time...
skin overburnt...
piggy n me were complaining itchy n pain till today... = =
after few days.. i started to do somthing tat disgusted all ma frens--- i was busy peeling off ma skin... ma dead skin... quite enjoyable thou~ hahahaa
b4 ma skin turned fair again... i went pulau ketam again n i get tanned again...
ne ne said i look lik malay = =
n ma mom keep saying i look vy 'dirty'
y every1 keep complaining bout ma skin color???
i love it!!!!!

tis post is kinda bored la... gonna upload more pics... :p
(hmm... when i finished touching up da photos la ^ ^)

ASQ nite...

2008-07-29T01:18:00.007+08:00

saturday nite 26th july..
asq finale nite...
b4 i went there..
me n ma girl decided to hav dinner in rakuzen, plaza damas since i'll b aorund mont kiara..
n here's da food!!!

unagi sushi~ yum~
bento set...
finale... mochi filled v green tea icecream n syrup!!! yummy.. tat's our fav!!!

after is super duper full dinner...
v went to ASQ finale in Stadium Negara v ma sis n her fren...
it was... hmmm~ ok la... not too bad...
but it was certainly a great nite for me!!!!den da day after... went out v fren...
movie.. makan... ok... i totally forgot to take da foods again...
i should change the so called 'food blog' perhaps!!! buahahah...
ok... tis blog's concept gonna b... errr... chaotic??
yayaya!!! best for tis blog!! lolz~

makan makan n makan!!!

2008-07-29T00:47:00.012+08:00

whole holidays... i've been feeding maself damn lotsa foooooooooooooood!!!
n hell ya!! i love food!!!
n it can be seen clearly frm the author himself (me la!!!)
the after-makan-effect had won him a big tummy... n extra extra fatss tat covered all over his body!!

im jus suddenly hav da feelin to post some 'food' blog...
so i started frm da day when i feel lik doin it la...
n i left out many food tat i ate throughout the whole holiday of mine!!!

ok... there u go~
25th july morning...
i hav to practise drivin v ma sis... n it's obvious tat im doin tat cz i was forced la T__T
pity me~
but den... im so clever... i went da bao some food when i fetched ma mom to market in the morning... so tat i can makan while she's practising... buahhahaaa~

den around 4 o 5pm..
meeting nic nic in lowyat..
i had ma mango low (mango dessert la) n fried chicken wings~
*im still not use to take pic of ma food... so...*

after tat... v fetch ne ne frm somewhere...
but it was so jam!! crazily jam!!!
den... buahahahha!!! dinner time!!!
v went to talipon bbq/steamboat, setapak..
since it is buffet bbq/steamboat...

the 3 N's gang *ne ne, nic nic n ny ny* vy kiasu!!! took damn lotsa food!!!

but actually da week b4 tis...
err... i edi hav talipon bbq/steamboat v ma girl in Kuchai Lama...

c how kiasu she is.. she took toooooooooo many n made me vomit cz 'over-dosed' of food...
but v still cant finish it..
she was scared tat ppl might charge us extra... n v were busy hiding those remaing food inside da pots.. inside da bowls etc... lame.... chilish...
speachless......

tis is onli 2 days of ma holiday...
n da 'after-eating-effect' is still carry on till now!!! wow!!!
amazing... but expected T__T

untitled...

2008-07-24T23:39:00.001+08:00

was browsing henry's blog...
saw tis stupid pic tat made me luff lik hell!!!
stupid sial!!!
really speechless when i saw tis pic..

考试 | 作弊

2008-07-22T23:43:00.005+08:00

saw tis frm some1's blog...
found it vy interesting...
n... err... ok...
i admit i almost did all tricks above!!!
swt...
jus to share la~ :p

family...

2008-06-19T23:21:00.002+08:00

all i can say is..
im not a family person!!!
i prefer to go out... hang out...
stay in fren's house...
not goin back....
i really don wanna stay at home...
jus tat... i cant...
i have the responsibility of being the onli son in the family...
i hav to...
n ya~ im doin everything for ma family bcz of da responsibility tat i need to have...
i noe it's bad... but tat's me!!
stress....
ma family.... speechless.....
haiz....
im still thinking to move out... but knowing ma dad's condition... although his vy annoyin!!!
n ma mom too....
she's ok when she din nag!!!
n i need to help her to take k of ma dad....

sigh.... family....

about ma study....

2008-06-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

it's been some times since ma last post ya~
hmm... nth much bout ma life... still da same...
been busy with assignments but im lazy to do ma assignments~!! ironic ya~ lolz~
wat to do~ so much works to be done but im getting lazier n lazier!!!
god!!! help me!!!
ok~ well~ i get over it (not ma laziness)
i finished all ma assignments FINALLY~ but i don think im goin real good tis sem!~ haiz~
i hav to blame maself for tat la~ cz too lazy edi~ n not so commited...
errr... i noe all tat!!! jus ~ hahaha~
lazy to improve!!! (im sure reyen will shake his head if he sees tis)

but~ seriously!!! i don wish ma laziness cont till nex sem!!!
final sem edi ler!!! wanna die meh??
haiz~ dunno la~ c how loo.... sienz.....
im officially in ma holiday now!!!
i tot last thurs was ma last submission~
mana tau~ work kena reject... kena shoot kau kau tis time!! ouch!!!
but i do admit all ma mistakes laaa...
haiz~ how i wish i hav good skill~ good ideas... bla bla bla...
i noe im not a good designer...
arrghhh!!! nv dare to think more bout ma future~
actually i still love fashion~
ma passion is still in fashion~
i still dream to b a stylish nex time~ hahahahah~ :p

done is done!!!
need to change in the coming sem!!!
n shit!! stupid harddisk spoilt!!!! all ma portfolio inside sial!!! sien!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
bad lucking again!!!
laptop, phone, laptop all oso got prob!!!
wat kinda life is tis!!!

Here In My Home - Malaysian Artists For Unity

2008-05-31T06:24:00.003+08:00

here's a side to share!!!!

http://www.malaysianartistesforunity.info/

no matter how we complain Malaysia, but deep in our heart, we still noe tat we are a part of msian... v love our frens that frm all diff races... peace!!! is all v need...

tis song is a simple tot frm some1 called pete.. he had a tot of making an anti-racism song tat sing by msian artists. he called few frens(artists/priducers/writter....) they all agree on it without hesitate and they continue calling designers, singers, footballers, etc and in few days times... 52 can make it for tis song. the song is recorded.. but more people is joining.. amount up to 120.. during the video shooting... all turn up.. having fun singing 'here in my home'...

having all celebs tat don get paid... having so many thingy but the budget still remain zero... tis is really a surprise!!! simply bcz we noe tat we are malaysian!! ^ ^

the songs and video can be downloaded in the website i mentioned above... enjoy...

' both the recording and the video would be given away for free. a gift to the nation. from those who love malaysia to those who feel the same.

did you ask what this is all about?

it’s about love.'

过客

2008-05-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

想了一想
在我生命中的过客也真不少！
我不是在说那些在路上经过的那些人啦。。
而是，
一些在我人生字典里真真正正留给我回忆的人。
短短的日子里，
有的留给我的是快乐的回忆，
有的留给我的是一大堆的问号，
当然有一些不是很好的回忆。
无论是好是坏，
那都是我的回忆，
一段段可以让我成长的回忆。
回忆的酸甜苦辣隐藏着无数的悲欢离合
而那悲欢离合
哼~
真的是一段段我不想提的记忆
可能对一些人来说我是个坏人吧～
也许我也真的是～
我不否认

我已经把这一段段的记忆埋葬在我脑海的最深处

但
有是也难免会想起了它
人生如果可以重来
我会不会在走回以上的路？？
我真的不知道。。。

真的谢谢这些'过客们'
让我人生曾经精彩过
让我学会的更多
看清楚了许多
人生经验更多
谢了.....

I appreciate it...^ ^

2008-05-06T23:35:00.003+08:00

1st of all~

i wanna giv a biiiiiiiiiiiig hug to Y.E, REEN, PENNY, REYEN, ALFEUS & YIWAWA!!!

some1 tat told me tat im one of da most important person in life..
i might b giving u guys a vy dramatic reaction (=_=|||)
but i do mean it!!! i really happy n shy at da same time when i hear tat!!!
jus wanna tq for saying tis!!!
it's really make ma day n i appreciate tat!!!!
i'll keep tat in ma heart...
n thanks a lot!!!
u guys mean a lot to me!!!!!

ps... to SONNIC n KELVIN as well~ :P

Crapzzzz...

2008-05-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

been sitting n rotting at home since yday...
not goin out... perhaps... no1 askin me out...
n i kinda get used to it... lolz
sitting in front of ma laptop all day long but not much ppl msn me thou...
started to realize tat i don hav much frens left (n ya~ i did filtered ma frens~ hahahaha~ onli keepin FEW close 1)
hmmm... i noe tat im not good in social even approaching to some strangers....
but who cares?? tat's me!!! *trying to comfort maself la* O_o

many things happened tis few weeks....
there's a person came n left ma life...
n im vy thankful for da great time v actually had together...
appreciate da moment v had...
but it's all becoming the used to be...
im having ma life good n certainly i hope tat u have a better life!!!

regards ma study...
arrgghhh...
lazy..
lazy... lazy... lazy....
getting lazier tis semester...
dunno y??
although i was so freaking fboring at home... i still don feel lik touch ma work...
ya~ lik ma classmates always complaining tat im living in denial... which is so true!!! XD
i cant cont ma laziness lik tis!!!
else i'll b fuckin failed tis sem!!!

ok... dunno wat im gonna say now...
hopefully i can pick up ma mood to get ma ass bck to work!!! >_<

I'll be fine...

2008-05-04T15:04:00.000+08:00

整个夜晚，
你不在身边怎么晚安？
我在晚风里等待，
看到回忆偷偷摇摆...

半个夜晚，
等一颗心陪我发呆...

我知道你不在，
我可以学着对你不依赖...
记忆里温柔的你好靠近，
我可以独立！！！

爱着你...

我知道爱存在
我的心里没模糊地带
那麦田里面的阳光
和我们熟悉的风

I'll be fine....

你抱着他睡...

2008-05-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

你抱着他睡，睡的香吗？

你抱着他睡，记得前几天你抱着我睡吗？

你抱着他睡，看到我枕边的泪水流淌被风干吗？

你抱着他睡，感觉到了他的呼吸吗？

你抱着他睡，是否就够你的幸福呢!

你抱着他睡，还有我们的约定吗？

你抱着他睡，我是你的谁呢!

你抱着他睡，梦里有我吗？

你抱着他睡，有梦到你们的未来么!

你抱着他睡，温暖吗？

你抱着他睡，会多一点睡意吗？

你抱着他睡，还能再爱我吗？

你抱着他睡，是否多一点温柔!

你抱着他睡，舍不得放开么!

你抱着他睡，你很爱他么？

你抱着他睡到天亮吗？

你抱着他睡的另一天，是否还能再来继续抱过我睡？!

conversation v some1...

2008-05-03T00:58:00.002+08:00

HH : y do u think me choose u over all others??
me : bcz u bliv in me?? hahhahaa...
HH : haha.. it's simply bcz i can c us carry tis relationship long.. till da day v old... oh no!! till da day v die!!!
me : wow...
HH : i can c u babysit ma babies... hahahaha.... *acting lik a baby saying - i wan tit tit*
me : swt... i'll throw da babies bck to u!!!! hahahahaha...

its funny but i really feel touched!!!

Disappointment on me...

2008-04-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

"my heart broken to a million pieces...
could no longer be ammended by broken promises..
with lies so white...which blackens all the thoughts of my lovely image of u..
a thousand pieces of shattered love...all blown away
as fragments of unprecedence...
good nite...n u really disapoint me"

放手

2008-04-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

这几天，
我从我朋友身上看见了一种爱。。。
可悲的是，
应该早就知道的道理，到了现在才明白
原来。。。
放手也是一种爱
我明白了这个道理
做人真的不该太执着
到后来伤的不只是对方
就连自己也会被埋葬在那一段恋情里。。。

things that YOU dunno...

2008-04-21T20:16:00.005+08:00

tat was da 1st time i stayed over in yo place...
kinda excited actually....
i cant slp da whole night...
not bcz im too excited la...
mayb it's jus way passed ma sleepin time...

i enjoyed watchin u slp...
^ ^
now onli i noe y ppl saying 看着喜欢的人睡觉是幸福的事... :p

i kissed u on yo cheek... den u awake... i was so shy den i pretend to slp again!! lolz...
den i wrote 'i love u' n 'i miss u' on yo back...
i tot u noe tat...
who knows da day after tat u were askin me did i do anything notty....
den i noe u totally passed out n dunno wat happened...
lol!!! really babi la u!!!
but cute....

sorry to make u awake da whole nite..
i hugged u b4 i go...
n u did giv me any respond...
hmmm... mayb u ar jus too sleepy o m i thinkin too much.... :p

u said it happened too fast tat day when i hold yo hand...
i noe tat u need some times... n i noe tat im a bit too rush too...
im still waiting for yo answer...

A Brand New Blog!!!

2008-04-21T19:26:00.002+08:00

wow!!! haven been touching tis blog for more den a year!!!
i think im more active in ma frenster blog... so u can refer bck to ma frenster blog is u wanna noe more update bout me... n hmmm... i think most of da things i post are usually ma unhappy thing...
apparently writting blog when im sad/ emo had been a habit to me...

im all alone now in cafe... was sitting here for 4 hrs (o more!! =_=|||) hmmm... listening to ma frens' stories... experiences.... n some of dem really touch ma heart!!!! i think tat become a motive for me to hav a real blog again!! lolz....

hmm... i really dunno wat im gonna write... jus feel lik doin smth to pass ma time now....(although i hav lik tans of assgn to be done)

oh ya... b4 i end tis post... YE n Sonnic!!!! b tough!!! life goes on!!! don look bck n don afraid of wat's coming nex!!! i love u all.... mwahz... ^ ^

Pretend

2007-01-29T01:59:00.000+08:00

No1 gonna c me sad!!!
i think im tryin ma best to pretend!!!
although im alrite v everything~
but i noe maself~
im not gonna b ok tat fast!!!

but i prefer to keep it by maself~
let it bear v me~
deal v me~
keep it forever~
pretend is wat im doin in ma life~
pretend to b happy~
.......

"inside da cover of 'Happy Shawn' is actually tear-full pages v blood"

傻瓜就是我

2007-01-27T09:11:00.000+08:00

你折磨了我
让我陷入回忆里生活
思念撕裂了伤口　
寂寞就像迷宫走不到出口

夜催眠了我　
带我走入黑夜里堕落
反反覆覆都是错　
难道清醒真是如此难求

我将誓言塞进我耳朵
让我听不见在心外呐喊的自由
我将爱情塞进我的口　
让我变成哑巴不能判决你死囚
忘了自己还有选择　
傻瓜就是我

再一次拥有

2007-01-27T08:55:00.000+08:00

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔