lifeless life continued...

im officially graduated 2 weeks ago...
n im still bz doin ma freelance work...
it gonna end by xmas.. (hopefully)
so that i got a week to rest or goin for haliday b4 i start ma permanent work on 2nd of jan...
it's really tired workin str8 after u grad...
for ma case... i was doin it like few weeks b4 i finish ma assgn...
n now at tis point... i really tired...
i did it for money but im not a robot... im really tired...
having problems on transportation/ accommodation/ tis n that...
actually i kinda regret for workin non stop now...
ppl saying tat im a workaholic... but if onli i have de money... i don hav to work lik a mad dog lik wat im doin now... rushing tis n tat... involved in office politic although im jus a freelancer...
n family jus dunno how hard im now...
im those who will not tell ma problems out....
in their point of view.. im still a manja, spoiled kid of the family...
but watever.. no point i wanna defent maself back bcz i noe wat im doin...
watever i do... i hav a reason for maself... n tat's enuff for me...
i don k how ppl c me.. how dey look at me...
as long as i noe wat i am doing....

p/s : all i need is a holiday.... but i noe it's hard for me to have tat now... :)

antisocial...

im getting more n more antisocial...

lifeless

im a workin man now!!!
but i still have 2 more assignments before i finish up ma semester...

conclusion..
(workin+study) at da same time = lifeless...

graduates showcase

yes!!! we made it!!!
ma class finally done v our graduates showcase...
i enjoyed the progression so much although there are lotsa gossips, arguments, streessss, bla bla bla going on.. but it's experience la!!! b positive...
n ya.. pic ll b up soon!!! stay tune..
2 more weeks to go!!! den i'll b officially free!!!
but.. i start workin today... cz i need money!!! lol...
hope tat i can allocate ma time well to finish up da assgn in hand n oso ma work!!!

good luck shawny!!!

"frighteningly lonely.."

"frighteningly lonely.."

"it's like when we were younger,
we were so lonely because we didn't have alot friends..
and now that we grown up..
loneliness seems just so much worse.."

"so i have one question, if we can love someone so much,
how will we be able to handle it the day when we are separated?
and if being separated is a part of life..
and you know about separation well...
is it possible that, we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
at the same time..
i was wondering..
is it possible that, we live our entire life without loving someone at all??"

"that's my loneliness..
i've lived with it now for 5 years..
i know just how bad loneliness feels...
i fear it will continue to get worse..."

Ticket...

เธอเคยได้ยินใช่ไหมว่าที่หนึ่งถ้าเราไปถึง จะมีทุกอย่าง
และเคยได้ยินใช่ไหมว่ามีรถไฟที่พาไปถึงปลา ยทาง
และคงได้ยินมาบ้างเรื่องตั๋วเดินทางไปสู่ค วามรัก
ที่มันอาจหาได้ไม่ยาก แต่มันลำบากเมื่อตอนเดินทาง
โย่ๆ เออ และนี่คือบทเพลงที่บรรเลงความหว้าเหว่ ก็คือ
This song a sing a song
อะหว้าเหว่ ดังๆ ใครต่อใครมาเจออะหว้าเหว่ มาฟัง
This song a sing a song อะหว้าเหว่ ฟ้างฟัง
นั่นคือเพลงๆนั้นที่เธอกับฉันเคยฟังด้วยกั น
บนทางที่ไปทะเลวันนั้น ฉันยังจำได้เหมือนในความฝัน
ที่บางคืนที่ฉันตื่นมานอนน้ำตา แค่ฝันร้าย
และคิดว่าเธอจะตื่นขึ้นมาได้เห็นได้ปลอบใจ แต่ไม่มีเลย
เธอจากฉันไป และนี่คือฝันร้ายที่ฉันยังคงติดตา
เหม่อมองดูทางรถไฟ ไม่มีใครไปแล้วกลับมา
คิดถึงใครที่ทิ้งไป แล้วไม่มีวันจะย้อนมา
หากฉันได้ไปกับรถไฟ ฉันคงจะไม่กลับมา
อยากไปกับรถไฟ แล้วคงไม่มีวันกลับมา
หา.. ใจคนเราไม่อาจลืมเลือนได้เช่นใด
แล้วก็ หัวใจคนไม่อยากเปลี่ยนแปลงไปเช่นนั้น
เรื่องที่ฉันตั้งใจจะลืมเธอไปสักคน เมื่อหลุดพ้น
ก็ทำใจลืมเธอได้ยาก ก็ไม่รู้ว่าเป็นเพราะอะไร
ใครบอกว่าทำใจมันต้องใช้เวลา เมื่อนานมาแล้วฉันรักเธอยังไง
แต่วันนี้เธอไปยังรักไม่มีสร่างซา ก็มันเป็นเพลงของใครไม่รู้
วันนี้ฉันเปิดดูไปเจอว่าแผ่นเสียง
ที่บอกว่าเป็นเพลงบนทางเดินเคียง
แต่วันนี้มีเพียง ฉันที่จำได้ ก็ไม่รู้ว่าจะลืมไปหรือยัง
ไม่รู้แม้กระทั่งเธอว่าไปอยู่ไหน
จะสบายดีหรือทุกข์ทนเจียนตาย
จะมีใครต่อใครปลอบใจหรือคอยยินดี
นี่คือความเสียใจที่ยังยืนยง
ในความลุ่มหลงที่ยังยืนนาน
เธอทำให้ฝันถึงวันเมื่อวาน
แล้วตื่นมา...ร้องไห้อยู่คนเดียว
นั่งมองดูทางรถไฟ ไม่มีใครไปแล้วกลับมา
คิดถึงใครที่ทิ้งไป แล้วไม่มีวันจะย้อนมา
(ไม่มีวันย้อนกลับมา)
หากฉันได้ไปกับรถไฟ ฉันคงจะไม่กลับมา
อยากไปกับรถไฟ แล้วคงไม่มีวันจะย้อนมา
ฉันนอนบนเตียงที่เธอเคยนอน และยังกอดหมอนที่เธอเคยหนุน
ฉันฝันว่ามันยังคงอบอุ่น ด้วยรักของเธอไม่มีเปลี่ยนไป
ฉันเคยพากเพียรเขียนซึ่งเพลงรัก ด้วยหวังว่าเธอจะมาสนใจ
แต่จนวันนี้ ณ เพลงรถไฟ
เธอไม่เคยจดจำ หรือเพราะว่ารักเธอ
ไปหรือเปล่า ฉันรักรักเธอเกินไปหรือเปล่า
หรือฉัน คิดถึง ไปหรือเปล่า
ฉันคิดคิดถึงเธอไปหรือเปล่า

Going Crazy...

2 more weeks to our final exhibition...
it gonna b a last show for us in tis degree life...
i've been bz doin da catalog for da show...
changes after changes...
im going crazy!!!
36 pages of works... changed n changed again...
ok la.. i admit it's ma mistakes!!!
n it take lotsa time to correct it lo... sien!!!

n now...
i jus finished doin all da changes..
i hope tis ll b da last change!!!!
cz v got no time...
v need to print da catalog out asap... >__<

done v da catalog...
i still hav ma self-promo items n a portfolio book which im having 0% of ma progression on tat!!!
tat's ma major project of tis sem!!
there'll b onli 2 weeks left... wish me luck....

To all the Loves that bring us to Life...

I can't b with you as your boyfriend..
But that doesn't mean that i don't love you...

Tongue Twister

Here are some challenges for your tongue!!!
enjoy!!!!

Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers.
Did Peter Piper pick a peck of pickled peppers?
If Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers,
where’s the peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked?

A skunk sat on a stump and thunk the stump stunk,
but the stump thunk the skunk stunk.

She sells sea shells by the sea shore.
The shells she sells are surely seashells.
So if she sells shells on the seashore,
I’m sure she sells seashore shells.

A bitter biting bittern
Bit a better brother bittern,
And the bitter better bittern
Bit the bitter biter back.
And the bitter bittern, bitten,
By the better bitten bittern,
Said: "I’m a bitter biter bit, alack!"

How much wood would a woodchuck chuck
if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
He would chuck, he would, as much as he could,
and chuck as much wood as a woodchuck would
if a woodchuck could chuck wood.

Can you imagine an imaginary menagerie manager
imagining managing an imaginary menagerie?

I slit the sheet,
The sheet I slit
and on the slitted sheet I sit.

a year older...

HapPy biRthdAy tO Me....

birthday month aint that happy for me...

when ppl saying birthday month is da happiest month for the birthday boy/girl..
i'll strongly disagree v the statement...

as usual..
birthday month is da month tat i'll b fuckin broke among da 12 months in a year but tis yr..
ma financial situation even worse...
not onli me but ma family as well..
2 days ago... i lost ma Rm50 tat supposed to be the expenses for the week...
i was so unhappy v tat...
n im still having some money tat i need to spend.. exhibition, printing, material... bla bla bla..
i seriously dunno how im goin to survive now..

i jus got ma medical check up report today...
not so good bout it...
im now under medication again...

lappy still giving me problems....
n now even worse!!!
it happens when i need to rush for datelines...

dad still annoying me...
i cant concentrate on ma work when im at home!!!

im kinda helpless
all tis issues making feels lik having some1 in ma life...
ironically... i started to miss u again...
but u'll nv noe tat :p

it's ok...
i can go tru it all by maself!!!
im tough *i hope*

'happy' birthday to me in advanced...

LIBRA - The Harmonizer

Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

happy birthday wayne...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE....

T___T

status : freaking poor
problem : i lost ma onli RM50 for this week that i jus got it frm mom

when status n tis kinda problem combine...
it's almost the same feelin of having a tsunami strike on u!!!

n YES!!! im having tat....

money money... where ar u??? T________T

smooth e baby scrub...

how can i forget bout tis ads i found randomly when i was youtube-ing??
was crazily obsessed v tis ads recently..
it is a must watch for ma day now!!! muahahhaa...
enjoy da ads la...

the recent me

it's been a while again...
the blog was in hibernate mode for a while due to ma laziness...
la la la...
but at least im here again...
i jus came bck from pulau ketam...
took lotsa pics... but lazy to upload la... gonna upload it as soon as i done v ma assgn n da touch up of images...

ok... talk bout life...
im still single...
missing some1 once in a while ;p
bz v ma assgn (supposed to be..)
n ya..
having a freakin poor life...
frns always luff at me tat i don hav much cash in ma wallet... bcz i'll nv hav more den 1 RM50 note... pathetic life la....

oh ya...
im getting darker n darker...
went to zoo... den tanned in PD during raya time...
skin overburnt...
piggy n me were complaining itchy n pain till today... = =
after few days.. i started to do somthing tat disgusted all ma frens--- i was busy peeling off ma skin... ma dead skin... quite enjoyable thou~ hahahaa
b4 ma skin turned fair again... i went pulau ketam again n i get tanned again...
ne ne said i look lik malay = =
n ma mom keep saying i look vy 'dirty'
y every1 keep complaining bout ma skin color???
i love it!!!!!

tis post is kinda bored la... gonna upload more pics... :p
(hmm... when i finished touching up da photos la ^ ^)

ASQ nite...

saturday nite 26th july..
asq finale nite...
b4 i went there..
me n ma girl decided to hav dinner in rakuzen, plaza damas since i'll b aorund mont kiara..
n here's da food!!!

unagi sushi~ yum~
bento set...
finale... mochi filled v green tea icecream n syrup!!! yummy.. tat's our fav!!!

after is super duper full dinner...
v went to ASQ finale in Stadium Negara v ma sis n her fren...
it was... hmmm~ ok la... not too bad...
but it was certainly a great nite for me!!!!den da day after... went out v fren...
movie.. makan... ok... i totally forgot to take da foods again...
i should change the so called 'food blog' perhaps!!! buahahah...
ok... tis blog's concept gonna b... errr... chaotic??
yayaya!!! best for tis blog!! lolz~

makan makan n makan!!!

whole holidays... i've been feeding maself damn lotsa foooooooooooooood!!!
n hell ya!! i love food!!!
n it can be seen clearly frm the author himself (me la!!!)
the after-makan-effect had won him a big tummy... n extra extra fatss tat covered all over his body!!

im jus suddenly hav da feelin to post some 'food' blog...
so i started frm da day when i feel lik doin it la...
n i left out many food tat i ate throughout the whole holiday of mine!!!

ok... there u go~
25th july morning...
i hav to practise drivin v ma sis... n it's obvious tat im doin tat cz i was forced la T__T
pity me~
but den... im so clever... i went da bao some food when i fetched ma mom to market in the morning... so tat i can makan while she's practising... buahhahaaa~

den around 4 o 5pm..
meeting nic nic in lowyat..
i had ma mango low (mango dessert la) n fried chicken wings~
*im still not use to take pic of ma food... so...*

after tat... v fetch ne ne frm somewhere...
but it was so jam!! crazily jam!!!
den... buahahahha!!! dinner time!!!
v went to talipon bbq/steamboat, setapak..
since it is buffet bbq/steamboat...

the 3 N's gang *ne ne, nic nic n ny ny* vy kiasu!!! took damn lotsa food!!!

but actually da week b4 tis...
err... i edi hav talipon bbq/steamboat v ma girl in Kuchai Lama...

c how kiasu she is.. she took toooooooooo many n made me vomit cz 'over-dosed' of food...
but v still cant finish it..
she was scared tat ppl might charge us extra... n v were busy hiding those remaing food inside da pots.. inside da bowls etc... lame.... chilish...
speachless......

tis is onli 2 days of ma holiday...
n da 'after-eating-effect' is still carry on till now!!! wow!!!
amazing... but expected T__T

untitled...

was browsing henry's blog...
saw tis stupid pic tat made me luff lik hell!!!
stupid sial!!!
really speechless when i saw tis pic..

考试 | 作弊

saw tis frm some1's blog...
found it vy interesting...
n... err... ok...
i admit i almost did all tricks above!!!
swt...
jus to share la~ :p

family...

all i can say is..
im not a family person!!!
i prefer to go out... hang out...
stay in fren's house...
not goin back....
i really don wanna stay at home...
jus tat... i cant...
i have the responsibility of being the onli son in the family...
i hav to...
n ya~ im doin everything for ma family bcz of da responsibility tat i need to have...
i noe it's bad... but tat's me!!
stress....
ma family.... speechless.....
haiz....
im still thinking to move out... but knowing ma dad's condition... although his vy annoyin!!!
n ma mom too....
she's ok when she din nag!!!
n i need to help her to take k of ma dad....

sigh.... family....

about ma study....

it's been some times since ma last post ya~
hmm... nth much bout ma life... still da same...
been busy with assignments but im lazy to do ma assignments~!! ironic ya~ lolz~
wat to do~ so much works to be done but im getting lazier n lazier!!!
god!!! help me!!!
ok~ well~ i get over it (not ma laziness)
i finished all ma assignments FINALLY~ but i don think im goin real good tis sem!~ haiz~
i hav to blame maself for tat la~ cz too lazy edi~ n not so commited...
errr... i noe all tat!!! jus ~ hahaha~
lazy to improve!!! (im sure reyen will shake his head if he sees tis)

but~ seriously!!! i don wish ma laziness cont till nex sem!!!
final sem edi ler!!! wanna die meh??
haiz~ dunno la~ c how loo.... sienz.....
im officially in ma holiday now!!!
i tot last thurs was ma last submission~
mana tau~ work kena reject... kena shoot kau kau tis time!! ouch!!!
but i do admit all ma mistakes laaa...
haiz~ how i wish i hav good skill~ good ideas... bla bla bla...
i noe im not a good designer...
arrghhh!!! nv dare to think more bout ma future~
actually i still love fashion~
ma passion is still in fashion~
i still dream to b a stylish nex time~ hahahahah~ :p

done is done!!!
need to change in the coming sem!!!
n shit!! stupid harddisk spoilt!!!! all ma portfolio inside sial!!! sien!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
bad lucking again!!!
laptop, phone, laptop all oso got prob!!!
wat kinda life is tis!!!

Here In My Home - Malaysian Artists For Unity

here's a side to share!!!!

http://www.malaysianartistesforunity.info/




no matter how we complain Malaysia, but deep in our heart, we still noe tat we are a part of msian... v love our frens that frm all diff races... peace!!! is all v need...

tis song is a simple tot frm some1 called pete.. he had a tot of making an anti-racism song tat sing by msian artists. he called few frens(artists/priducers/writter....) they all agree on it without hesitate and they continue calling designers, singers, footballers, etc and in few days times... 52 can make it for tis song. the song is recorded.. but more people is joining.. amount up to 120.. during the video shooting... all turn up.. having fun singing 'here in my home'...

having all celebs tat don get paid... having so many thingy but the budget still remain zero... tis is really a surprise!!! simply bcz we noe tat we are malaysian!! ^ ^

the songs and video can be downloaded in the website i mentioned above... enjoy...

' both the recording and the video would be given away for free. a gift to the nation. from those who love malaysia to those who feel the same.

did you ask what this is all about?

it’s about love.'

过客

想了一想
在我生命中的过客也真不少！
我不是在说那些在路上经过的那些人啦。。
而是，
一些在我人生字典里真真正正留给我回忆的人。
短短的日子里，
有的留给我的是快乐的回忆，
有的留给我的是一大堆的问号，
当然有一些不是很好的回忆。
无论是好是坏，
那都是我的回忆，
一段段可以让我成长的回忆。
回忆的酸甜苦辣隐藏着无数的悲欢离合
而那悲欢离合
哼~
真的是一段段我不想提的记忆
可能对一些人来说我是个坏人吧～
也许我也真的是～
我不否认

我已经把这一段段的记忆埋葬在我脑海的最深处

但
有是也难免会想起了它
人生如果可以重来
我会不会在走回以上的路？？
我真的不知道。。。

真的谢谢这些'过客们'
让我人生曾经精彩过
让我学会的更多
看清楚了许多
人生经验更多
谢了.....

I appreciate it...^ ^

1st of all~

i wanna giv a biiiiiiiiiiiig hug to Y.E, REEN, PENNY, REYEN, ALFEUS & YIWAWA!!!

some1 tat told me tat im one of da most important person in life..
i might b giving u guys a vy dramatic reaction (=_=|||)
but i do mean it!!! i really happy n shy at da same time when i hear tat!!!
jus wanna tq for saying tis!!!
it's really make ma day n i appreciate tat!!!!
i'll keep tat in ma heart...
n thanks a lot!!!
u guys mean a lot to me!!!!!

ps... to SONNIC n KELVIN as well~ :P

Crapzzzz...

been sitting n rotting at home since yday...
not goin out... perhaps... no1 askin me out...
n i kinda get used to it... lolz
sitting in front of ma laptop all day long but not much ppl msn me thou...
started to realize tat i don hav much frens left (n ya~ i did filtered ma frens~ hahahaha~ onli keepin FEW close 1)
hmmm... i noe tat im not good in social even approaching to some strangers....
but who cares?? tat's me!!! *trying to comfort maself la* O_o

many things happened tis few weeks....
there's a person came n left ma life...
n im vy thankful for da great time v actually had together...
appreciate da moment v had...
but it's all becoming the used to be...
im having ma life good n certainly i hope tat u have a better life!!!

regards ma study...
arrgghhh...
lazy..
lazy... lazy... lazy....
getting lazier tis semester...
dunno y??
although i was so freaking fboring at home... i still don feel lik touch ma work...
ya~ lik ma classmates always complaining tat im living in denial... which is so true!!! XD
i cant cont ma laziness lik tis!!!
else i'll b fuckin failed tis sem!!!

ok... dunno wat im gonna say now...
hopefully i can pick up ma mood to get ma ass bck to work!!! >_<

I'll be fine...

整个夜晚，
你不在身边怎么晚安？
我在晚风里等待，
看到回忆偷偷摇摆...

半个夜晚，
等一颗心陪我发呆...

我知道你不在，
我可以学着对你不依赖...
记忆里温柔的你好靠近，
我可以独立！！！

爱着你...

我知道爱存在
我的心里没模糊地带
那麦田里面的阳光
和我们熟悉的风

I'll be fine....

你抱着他睡...

你抱着他睡，睡的香吗？

你抱着他睡，记得前几天你抱着我睡吗？

你抱着他睡，看到我枕边的泪水流淌被风干吗？

你抱着他睡，感觉到了他的呼吸吗？

你抱着他睡，是否就够你的幸福呢!

你抱着他睡，还有我们的约定吗？

你抱着他睡，我是你的谁呢!

你抱着他睡，梦里有我吗？

你抱着他睡，有梦到你们的未来么!

你抱着他睡，温暖吗？

你抱着他睡，会多一点睡意吗？

你抱着他睡，还能再爱我吗？

你抱着他睡，是否多一点温柔!

你抱着他睡，舍不得放开么!

你抱着他睡，你很爱他么？

你抱着他睡到天亮吗？

你抱着他睡的另一天，是否还能再来继续抱过我睡？!

conversation v some1...

HH : y do u think me choose u over all others??
me : bcz u bliv in me?? hahhahaa...
HH : haha.. it's simply bcz i can c us carry tis relationship long.. till da day v old... oh no!! till da day v die!!!
me : wow...
HH : i can c u babysit ma babies... hahahaha.... *acting lik a baby saying - i wan tit tit*
me : swt... i'll throw da babies bck to u!!!! hahahahaha...

its funny but i really feel touched!!!

Disappointment on me...

"my heart broken to a million pieces...
could no longer be ammended by broken promises..
with lies so white...which blackens all the thoughts of my lovely image of u..
a thousand pieces of shattered love...all blown away
as fragments of unprecedence...
good nite...n u really disapoint me"

放手

这几天，
我从我朋友身上看见了一种爱。。。
可悲的是，
应该早就知道的道理，到了现在才明白
原来。。。
放手也是一种爱
我明白了这个道理
做人真的不该太执着
到后来伤的不只是对方
就连自己也会被埋葬在那一段恋情里。。。

things that YOU dunno...

tat was da 1st time i stayed over in yo place...
kinda excited actually....
i cant slp da whole night...
not bcz im too excited la...
mayb it's jus way passed ma sleepin time...

i enjoyed watchin u slp...
^ ^
now onli i noe y ppl saying 看着喜欢的人睡觉是幸福的事... :p

i kissed u on yo cheek... den u awake... i was so shy den i pretend to slp again!! lolz...
den i wrote 'i love u' n 'i miss u' on yo back...
i tot u noe tat...
who knows da day after tat u were askin me did i do anything notty....
den i noe u totally passed out n dunno wat happened...
lol!!! really babi la u!!!
but cute....

sorry to make u awake da whole nite..
i hugged u b4 i go...
n u did giv me any respond...
hmmm... mayb u ar jus too sleepy o m i thinkin too much.... :p

u said it happened too fast tat day when i hold yo hand...
i noe tat u need some times... n i noe tat im a bit too rush too...
im still waiting for yo answer...

A Brand New Blog!!!

wow!!! haven been touching tis blog for more den a year!!!
i think im more active in ma frenster blog... so u can refer bck to ma frenster blog is u wanna noe more update bout me... n hmmm... i think most of da things i post are usually ma unhappy thing...
apparently writting blog when im sad/ emo had been a habit to me...

im all alone now in cafe... was sitting here for 4 hrs (o more!! =_=|||) hmmm... listening to ma frens' stories... experiences.... n some of dem really touch ma heart!!!! i think tat become a motive for me to hav a real blog again!! lolz....

hmm... i really dunno wat im gonna write... jus feel lik doin smth to pass ma time now....(although i hav lik tans of assgn to be done)

oh ya... b4 i end tis post... YE n Sonnic!!!! b tough!!! life goes on!!! don look bck n don afraid of wat's coming nex!!! i love u all.... mwahz... ^ ^