逃避 II

因为疫情关系，

待在家的时间久了，难免就多了摩擦。

多了complains... 

多了烦恼。。。

什么都多了。。。

逃避

 只是自己一直在逃避著一個事實，

我怎麼會對一個這樣的人付出那麼多？

他真的不會珍惜

也不會珍惜你這個人

逃避面對

「自己真的遇到了一個渣男！」

继续。。。

 

来生

 人生很苦，

如果有来生，

不，

不想了，

不想要有来生了。。。

没想到我又回来了

复杂的思绪，需要抒发的管道。 

 上星期五一个要好的同事突然问道，

‘是不是我做错了什么，我觉得你最近对我很冷漠’ 

 这句话当下让我意识到了，是不是我潜意识里，把我的情绪发泄在别人的身上? 

 我知道最近的我，情绪上是真的有不断的起伏。

 每当我一个人的时候，情绪就会涌上， 

 失眠，伤感，没胃口，心跳，一直觉得身边很多没解决的问题，家里的压力，未来的迷惘，自己不够好，永远都是候补，在意、看重的事情太多了。。。 

 我都在一直压抑着，也就身边几个要好的朋友察觉、知道我的情绪问题。 

 原来我都不断的在压抑着自己，总是呈现自己正面的一面。 

 （这也可能是我自己给自己的压力吧）

 我知道我有情绪问题，

尝试了运动或烘培来让自己不要想太多。 

 但到了自己一个人的时候，

莫名其妙的情绪又会不断的缠绕着我， 

 有时候真的很想离开一下，让自己抽离。。。 

 加上疫情关系，大家都关在家里，更加重了自己负面情绪。 

我也想正面些， 

 不要再去想太多， 

学着放手， 

可是真的。。。 

很难。

痛！ 我的心還在痛！

心碎

感覺被打回到了起點　我的明天就被你全部毀滅 可憐我　走不進你的世界 可憐我　得不到你的永遠 可憐我　心碎了不只千遍 你沒感覺　這份愛怎麼給斷了線 感情的世界　我越過了界 還能不顧一切　繼續為愛　繼續冒險

我會調適我自己。。。

我在很努力的在經營著，你看到了嗎？

How I wish...

How I wish if this can be real! How I wish if I could hold this hand forever! How I wish to hear you every morning when I wake up! How I wish to see you whenever I miss you! How I wish if you would be mine! How I wish you would say yes if I'm asking you the same question again.

有时候。。

有时候。。 难免会想起你。。。 亲爱的。。 你还好吗？

...We were always just that close

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
...We were always just that close
Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

It's never easy!

it's never easy...



i'm still not over it..



..n i'm still holding on...


i know i shouldn't but i just can't help myself..


i'm so stupid for still doing all these!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

... to be continued..

愁人节

Merry No More Christmas..

Merry X'mas!!!
A festival with love...
A festival of celebration...
A festival I love the most...

..but I don't feel anything in this lovely day..
I'm afraid of the idea of the loneliness after celebration, 狂欢后的寂寞..
it's just sucks!

Imagine u have to drive back alone after the celebration?
Where is the person that will hold your hand when driving?
Where is the person that will ask for a kiss whn you get into the car?
Where is the person that seated whn you turn your head to your left?

A day I love the most but I did not spend a single time with the person I wish to spend with..

Merry Merry Christmas.. :)

Song that stucked in my mind.. Perhaps.. it is in my mind?

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I've been in love with you

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

Policeman says son you can't stay here
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl, oh whoa
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we meet
Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street

So I'm not moving
('Cause if one day you wake up, find that you're missing me)
I'm not moving
(And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be)
I'm not moving
(Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet)
I'm not moving
(Oh, you see me waiting for you on a corner of the street)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

all alone in an empty office during friday nite!

^ ^

如飞蛾之赴火，岂焚身之可吝

I'm not broke, I'm just a broken hearted man...